YOGA SAVED ME Gemma Linaker
Yoga saved me
I’m Gemma Linaker. British wheel of yoga teacher, Holistic therapist and owner of Lemonstem yoga studio.
In 2013 I was 26 years of age and I was working as a teacher at our town’s local college teaching beauty & holistic therapies. This was my first Job as a teacher after graduating from university with a teaching degree. I had my first home with my partner, a good job, degree and an abundant of family and friends around me. Things were looking beautiful from the “outside”
But that’s exactly it. “The outside”
On the inside I was battling with anxiety. This was the kind of anxiety that nestles deep in your entire being. This was the type of anxiety where you felt suffocated by your own thoughts.
Each morning a beam of light shone through my curtains from my bed reminding me it’s a new day to walk side by side again with my shadow of darkness. I couldn’t wait for each day to be over in the hope that the next morning my shadow would be gone.
This anxiety gave me a foggy vision and a heavy heart. If I close my eyes, I can still feel the cold that the grey cloud swept me in.
I remember clearly being in the gym one evening and deciding to try a yoga class. I had never tried yoga before, but at the time I was very much into running half marathons and even my first full marathon, so I only went really because I thought I needed to stretch more. I never once thought yoga was as much about the mental healing as it is physical healing.
I will never forget that first class. Something happened. I found a glimmer of myself inside. She only came out for a split second, but I found her. She was in there trapped. I needed to get her out.
I walked away from that class confused, enlightened, frightened, happy and curious! I know, what a mix bag of emotions hey
I wanted MORE!
Each week I attended class. Sometimes with a heavy heart and other times I felt aligned and my mind clear as water. You see the thing is your yoga mat doesn’t care if you come with a jumbled mind, all it cares about is that you show up.
I began to yoga consistently and fall deeply in love with self help books. Even today you will always find me carrying a self-help book. My first self-help book that brought to me my first ever sprinkle of magic was the secret.
From here my holistic approach to wellness snowballed. I started to eat better, to move in a gentler approach as opposed to all the running I used to do. My mind felt clearer and I was taught how to see the beauty in every single moment and appreciate every loving breath I was given by this universe.
In 2017 I was due to go back to the college after having a year off with my first child Freddie. Something didn’t feel right about it. I guess I felt this wasn’t no longer my path anymore. I had changed. Or better to say I had found my true self.
Later that year I followed my calling and trained to be a yoga teacher with the British wheel of yoga school. The rest is history!
My career is beautiful. I get to share the beauty and healing properties of this ancient practice with our human race and it literally fills every cell of my body with humility and Joy.
If you have never tried a yoga class before then I urge you to try one. Yoga is a breath led practice which is simply the best gift you could ever give to yourself.
There are many wonderful teachers out there all sharing a little piece of their own hearts with you. Each teacher will offer something different and you will find your teachers that you connect with, and when that happens, the magic surely arrives.
There is so much to explore with yoga, it doesn’t just stop after taking one class. The teachings are infinite, and this blog only gives you a glimmer.
But what I will promise you, is that once you begin to start working on yourself of all mentally, physically and spiritually you will never look back. You will always continue to be the best version of your true self.
So, what are you waiting for? Find your class, step onto your mat and watch your path enfold out Infront of you.
My favourite quote
“Yoga isn’t about touching your toes. It’s about what you learn on the way down” – Jigar Gor
Love & Light